if you dont want to read my rantish thing dont. these are just my feelings. ( no names are mentioned )
i dunno but i think that a lot of the people who are friends with me only like me for my art and interests and for my 'entertainment'. like 'oh grace can you draw me ______? youre a really good artist (not drawer) and yeah we're like great friends so you should totally draw me _____ thanks!' and yeah.... or 'oh grace you said if i got_____ % on the test you would buy me_____. i did because it was a deal, but later, they recieve the thing and never even say a simple 'thank you i appreciate you spending your own money for me.' even for drawings, they just take the picture and put it inside their backpack and walk away. not a lot of people acknowledge my presence and yeah i don't mind, but they only 'use' me for things like 'grace, buy me a gatorade.' and never say a single word of appreciation. like a .05 second 'thanks'.
all my life my friendship and generous nature has been taken for granted. i really love giving out when people show gratitude but, yeah....... *shuffles away*
eheh.... you can call me a crybaby but today i nearly cried in fifth period when the thoughts of all the accumulated years of pain come back (like getting overwhelmed with feels but not like that) *deep sigh* i dont know who to be mad at. me? for being so pathetic and giving in to their words of 'i'll love you forever' but you wont. i guess its just because i never hear these words from people at school. im not saying everyone, but the majority.
continue if you choose to read my pathetic little talk...
i love this girl to death, (like so much, like creepy amg iodfhudsiofuhewiufhew ) but recently, everytime i try to talk to her and a friend, she inturrupts me immediatly so i cant talk. its kind of obvious, but i think shes trying hard to be funny or whatever but and example of that was today i said something 'interesting' when the three of us were talking and she automatically repeats what i say and gives me this smug look. oddly enough, i tell her thats what i just said, and she says 'im mimicking you'. (with that faceceefwih_) fds
okkkk thats a bit odd to have a person admit to your face, but i guess she didnt mean any harm riiight?
also, she tends to hog away the friend so we can't talk as a triangle be just pushes me out of the conversation.....
am i really that unlikeable?
also, i think a lot of my friends hate me now yaaay (lol no crying) if i could make an icon diagram heres what it might look like:
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well yeah it may not look like im aloneish, because i just tag along with a my closest friend but yeah she ditches me too .________________. ditto
ok ditto you'll be my friend right? a person (thing) i can trust, depend on, laugh with, feel included with.... *cut off*
NO. *runs away*
ive tried to see how it would feel by being a loner, but that never works and i guess its human nature, but we need human contact. (other than your family ^ ^ )
ok this will be a novel if i don't stop... alright yeah